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Tracking some of that guitar 🎸🎸👌 (Taken with instagram)

Wed, 30 May 2012 17:19:17 -0400

Tracking some of that guitar 🎸🎸👌 (Taken with instagram)

a video i made for my girl —- i’ve been here...

Fri, 25 May 2012 18:27:00 -0400

a video i made for my girl

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i’ve been here before,
or at least i thought i had

But the memories i had of this place
didn’t shine quite as bright
or as true as it does now

I go over and over in my head the circumstances
that brought me to you

and not a lot of it makes sense

I don’t know where I began on this journey
I don’t remember the right turns
or the left turns I took

but what I do remember is getting lost
over and over again
having to go back to find my way
to go the right direction

and I had a constant ringing in my head
A broken song, or a broken melody

a broken sound

It wasn’t until now that i realized it was
our song, and our melody

our sound

The beauty of it, excitingly too loud at times
quiet when it needs to be
faster here
slower there
and sometimes not even loud enough

This is where I found My journey,
This is where I found my song

this place where we are
this place where we’re going

I don’t’ know when where or how we’ll reach that place
but the journey serves more the purpose than anything else

Such a beautiful a song we have
a wonderful chorus of agonizing hope
and everlasting fear

a single melody that speaks to me more than the earth itself

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What I’m Doing For The Month Of May

Post-prom (Taken with instagram)

Sat, 19 May 2012 23:16:41 -0400

Post-prom (Taken with instagram)

you're amazingly amazing c:

Tue, 15 May 2012 22:58:22 -0400

Thanks! That puts a smile on my face!

Days 3-8

Fri, 04 May 2012 17:05:12 -0400

~~Website Deisgn~~

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For the next week I’ll be pouring myself into some html coding, graphic design, and website layout design for my band’s website.

It’s been a long time since i’ve done something like this

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What I’m Doing For The Month Of May

Day 2

Thu, 03 May 2012 02:24:27 -0400

~~Learn how to use Flash~~

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Tonight I watched a ton of videos on how to work flash and make simple animations, they didn’t come out very well but I really enjoyed making simple animations like a bunny hopping across the screen. This is something I’ve really been wanting to get into for a while now, and I feel really accomplished finally getting to understand the basics of how it works. Hopefully I can get real good at this and make some kind of mini animated cartoon or something :]

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What I’m Doing for the Month of May

Day 1

Wed, 02 May 2012 01:19:58 -0400

~~Start Writing Poetry~~

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It’s not where land meets sea
That intrigues me
Or where Sky meets earth
That I desire

But rather,
Where ordinary meets extraordinary
And becomes memorable,
Even legendary

Where birds first fly
Where a lion first roars
Where babies first cry
And children first walk

Where should I run?
To get there?

I can’t climb mountains
I can’t swim oceans

But I’ll take one hill at a time
And I’ll cross one stream at a time

Until I reach that place
Until I’ve reached that place

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What I’m Doing For The Month Of May

I've decided

Tue, 01 May 2012 15:10:05 -0400

That for the month of May, I’m going to do something creative everyday.

I feel as if my life has entered a machine-like state of repetition, structure, and familiarity. Everyday is just a repeat of the day or the week before. Not that I don’t enjoy it, but I find myself having less and less time to do some of the things I love doing. So I’ve made a commitment to myself to do something creative everyday for the next 31 days. This will include, writing, pictures, videos, short films, music, painting, drawing, ANYthing that will force me out of this daily routine i’ve developed.

I’m really excited to get this started and I’ll be sure to post pictures, videos, or something up everyday to let you know how well i’m doing

My first creative endeavor will be poetry.
Not something I find easy to do, so it should be challenge enough.

I’ll post what I come up with tonight

Video

Sun, 15 Apr 2012 22:23:16 -0400

Video

Sun, 15 Apr 2012 00:42:49 -0400

From top to bottom you’ve covered your walls with unnecessary things. You’ve covered...

Fri, 13 Apr 2012 10:24:49 -0400

From top to bottom you’ve covered your walls with unnecessary things.

You’ve covered it with doubt
With insecurity
With hate
With selfishness
With pride
With heartache
With brokenness
With forgotten dreams
With empty promises
With chances you should’ve taken
With regrets
With what-ifs
With loneliness
With bad memories
With trust issues
With depression
With words unspoken
With words left unsaid
With fear

Stop.

Paint your walls white and start again

This is not who you were meant to be.

I Climbed the Tree and Saw the World

Wed, 11 Apr 2012 00:40:43 -0400

I climbed the tree and saw the world.
I saw the reflected sun on the ocean’s face
and the snow topped mountains peaking high in the sky

I climbed the tree and saw the world.
I saw man fight man, and beast kill beast
I saw humanity cry and fall on it’s knees

I climbed the tree and saw the world.
I saw love found the lost, and the lost find love
I saw the heart of man, so cold, so dark

I climbed the tree and saw the world.
I watched as blame was cast upon
the righteous man, and the wicked walked

I climbed the tree and saw the world.
I saw my fate as a mortal man
I saw my fate as a mortal man

I burned the tree that showed me the world

What is begun as a poem must end in a change What is started as words must end in rebirth What is...

Wed, 11 Apr 2012 00:40:12 -0400

What is begun as a poem must end in a change

What is started as words must end in rebirth

What is finished by ink must begin with inspiration

What is completed with a book must be created with a dream

What is traveled as a journey

Must be spent like a lesson

What is sung as a song

Must be heard as emotion

What I began by reading,

I must finish by acting

Wake up

Wed, 11 Apr 2012 00:36:11 -0400

Why are you asleep?
What makes you want to throw yourself into this numb dreamworld you fell in love with?

This isn’t you.

Wake up.

high school flashback!

Thu, 29 Mar 2012 16:05:55 -0400

high school flashback!

and it begins again

Mon, 19 Mar 2012 22:29:13 -0400

and it begins again

But I should probably say that I’m unsure why I’m...

Thu, 15 Mar 2012 01:40:46 -0400

But I should probably say that I’m unsure why I’m running,
Running away from the only thing I want.
Yeah, I should probably say that I’m unsure why I’m running,
Running away from the one I love.

Everyone I’ve ever met Has felt something I haven’t...

Mon, 12 Mar 2012 00:10:07 -0400

Everyone I’ve ever met
Has felt something I haven’t yet
A cause, a cure, a deep regret
A face, a fear they can’t forget

So now I know just what that means
Most things don’t last and love can leave
And if we hold on to these memories
Of broken hands that could not be

Framed in paper window dreams

Photo

Fri, 09 Mar 2012 01:42:29 -0500

“I thought I understood it, that I could grasp it. But I didn’t,...

Fri, 09 Mar 2012 01:01:00 -0500

“I thought I understood it, that I could grasp it. But I didn’t, not really. Only the smudgeness of it; the pink-slippered, all-containered, semi-precious eagerness of it. I didn’t realize it would sometimes be more than whole, that the wholeness was a rather luxurious idea. Because it’s the halves that halve you in half. I didn’t know, don’t know, about the in-between bits; the gory bits of you, and the gory bits of me.”