December 2008
19 posts
10:42
Some wait their whole lives to fall in love. While others have love so abundantly. But can one who has love, understand the importance of love, like a man waiting his whole life for love? I would say the man waiting for love and never receives it holds it more dear than the person who has it already in his hand. How can you long and desire something you already have, how can you sacrifice what is...
Boxing Day
11:54
Die. Vermin. Choke.
“A divine falsehood is more powerful than a human truth.”
7:11
Breathe. Just Breathe.
3:07
I’m stuck in this pit. I’m stuck in this ever expanding, and ever deepening pit of sorrow and despair. I can’t begin to describe to you my pain. I can’t breathe.
I hope it snows this week, A snow flake on your cheek Would make this Christmas so Beautiful But that would just bring the pain Cause things can’t stay the same These Holidays won’t be wonderful I...
11:06
What do I have going for me??
My family is falling apart. My parents are in a constant argue. I’m home, alone, on Christmas Eve. My Christmas will be empty and without the presents and love that are traditional. My friends are falling one by one, and i’m getting tired of helping everyone else but my self. I’m depressed and in love. enough said. What do I have that keeps me...
Listen
11:50
It’s getting painful now It hurts to think about your smiling face And breathing’s just a luxury for me I can’t breathe deeply without you I hope your friends will keep you safe I hope you’re happy And you’ll think of me while I’m away You’re too good to be out on your own In the winter, I know You’ll be freezing but I can’t get home ...
11:25
When I was growing up, I heard the same bullshit you did: “Dream it and do it”. My teachers all said it; my mom said it; even fictional T.V. characters weighed in; and before long, I actually started believing them.
I’d put my mind into something, and then if it didn’t work out, I’d just put some more of my mind into it. Needless to say, I always got what I wanted… ‘Cause when you put that...
11:17
Miss somebody so desperately that you feel it in the corners of your eyes like tears, but there are none, and in the top of your throat like something to swallow, but there is nothing, and in your chest like a bruise. Let the pain of that loneliness keep you awake at night, awake on the side of some freeway, somewhere, and let the cars drive by and hiss and whistle and think of all the places...
8:31
“wonder how many people you have as friends and only a handful you can really tell know that much about you? i counted. i didnt use two of my hands thats all i can say. is it a sad thing? not necessarily so. i have my guards up all the way, all the time. you may know a thing or two about me but that is not enough to let you in all the way. i have reservations with everyone and i only have...
8:25
I wrote a song for you. i hope you like it. ;I know about how this works. broken
8:05
She has claws that scrape along the spiders silk Venom to kill. Muddy eyes, broken broken broken She seeks the victim and makes it her prey. But she prays. Oh she prays. broken. A horrible monster, a horrible monster. Ugly, and broken. Filled with her greed and impurities, She Laughs. A twisted laugh, that tears souls. She bit the heart god gave to me. She broke the life god died for me. Her...
12:51
Purity. That’s what amazes me the most about the snow. How it can be so pure and clean and blameless. But, at the same time the cause for destruction. ;car crashes, road accidents, shoveling driveways, wet clothes, homeless families freezing. Purity? That’s what confuses me the most. My own winter wonderland reminding me of my impurities. A map of snowflakes are reminding, that i only...
11:02
I am in Love. Almost like a truth that seduces you into it’s way. This is a horrible way to live my life; Constant hurting, constant suffering. It’s not what I imagined. It’s a curious subject to be talking about, but I think it to be appropriate. ;Belief;Believing How can you know when you’re truely in love? It hurts. It hurts when you see them, it hurts when they...
“I don’t want to Survive. I want to Live.”
10:24
Do you ever wonder about the world? Like, not the situations that define us, but the instances that makes us. Why is this experience so necessary? Why. God, Why do I have to go through this to become a better person? This is a new form of torture, and a new way to hate. I could bleed out my sincerity and pour out my empathy, But I’d rather choke. I only wish for something or someone to...
10:29
It’s crazy, almost insane, how impossible, no, how unearthly, this has become. This struggle. Not only for words, but for life. It burdens my being living like this. This is a cold world. I’m no longer writing for the world to see. Now i see that i have to write for myself, and only myself. This is a journey. A journey that whoever reads in the future will follow. Not through maps or...