“ There are no more barriers to cross. All I have in common with the uncontrollable and the insane, the vicious and the evil, all the mayhem I have caused and my utter indifference toward it I have now surpassed. My pain is constant and sharp and I do not hope for a better world for anyone, in fact I want my pain to be inflicted on others. I want no one to escape, but even after admitting this there is no catharsis, my punishment continues to elude me and I gain no deeper knowledge of myself; no new knowledge can be extracted from my telling. This confession has meant nothing.
— Patrick Bateman (American Psycho)
i’m getting so close to finally completing what i wanted to since 8th grade :]
I’m almost done with having my own full little bedroom studio.
Needless to say it’s a good feeling
side note;
i’m sorry if i offended anyone with my jan 27th post..
Sometimes i forget that certain people will read my blog
So i tend to write in it as if it were my private journal
It was never directed only towards you,
Most of it was a cry out to friends i had lost
Friends I had so much fun sharing life with,
Not just you.
The reason i shouldn’t write on my public blog, like it’s a private journal
is because certain people will misinterpret and think it’s
An attack towards them.
I told you i was done with all that, so I am.
That post was about how much i missed sharing life
With people i loved
I chose to use an excerpt from your blog because it’s the only written
Accounts of what happened during those times.
That post was my way of saying how i miss danielle, alec, and yourself
And how i wish i could still share my story with you guys.
”it’s so sad to see the people these happy kids grew up into to. “
lines like that were never meant in offense,
simply to convey, how sad it is, how all of us grew up into kids who barely
speak to each other.
Probably the only part that was directly about you was the last line.
I believe it was misinterpretation of my posts that was the reason i deleted my first blog. Please don’t think it’s still about you, it’s not, and it won’t ever be again.
You have my promise on that
I don’t mean to bother you
I’ll delete that jan 27th post, as to prevent further misunderstandings.
I’m sorry
http://www.collegehumor.com/video:1797930
“I climbed the tree and saw the world.
I saw the reflected sun on the ocean’s face
and the snow topped mountains peaking high in the sky
I climbed the tree and saw the world.
I saw man fight man, and beast kill beast
I saw humanity cry and fall on it’s knees
I climbed the tree and saw the world.
I saw love found the lost, and the lost find love
I saw the heart of man, so cold, so dark
I climbed the tree and saw the world.
I watched as blame was cast upon
the righteous man, and the wicked walked
I climbed the tree and saw the world.
I saw my fate as a mortal man
I saw my fate as a mortal man
I burned the tree that showed me the world.”
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circa 2007
I was a very depressing child. At the same time it’s kind of interesting to see the person I used to be compared to the person I am now.
